No Longer Mine

I remember the very day that I met the man that I was going to spend the rest of my life with. I fell in love very hard…haead over heels… I never knew love could be so very real. We have gone through so many things since we became husband and wife. Our relationship has been tested and tried, but we have come through it all. Yes, there have been more teardrops shed from the both of us, but it would take me a lifetime to count them all; and even if I could I would probably never finish.

There has been happy times just as well that out weigh some of the bad times. There have been joyous occasions that will be always remembered by the both of us. Years has come and gone and life has happened in more ways than one; traumatic events that has taken us all by surprise. Some more than others but life goes on. We have to learn to let things go that hurt us and forgive those that hurt us as well.

I know that we promised one another that we would never leave one or the other, but that was just temporal minds speaking an untruth. We are going to part ways in time, but in God’s own time. It really pains me to know that we may not even get to say good-bye to each other.

It pains me to know that he will no longer be mine, and I will no longer be his; we will not even remember being married to one another. Will our children remember us? Will they know who we are when they come to join us? Will God help us to remember one another? Why is marriage so important here on earth if we can’t be together as husband and wife in heaven? This is something I don’t think I will ever understand.

Will our children still be our children, will we still be a family? It brings tears to my eyes because I feel that we won’t be a family anymore. I cannot help but cry. I love us, and I want us all to be together. Lord knows how I feel. I cannot hide my feelings from the One that created me. Maybe one day it will all make since to me, but right now I just don’t understand.

When we got married, I thought that it would be forever…for all eternity…but I was wrong. It’s only for the time that God let us live together down here. No longer mine for always…for keeps; simply because we all belong to someone else, and that someone else is God our Creator. No longer mine, no longer his. We are all temporary.