Weeping

Lately I have been on an emotional roller-coaster. There has just been one thing after another. I don’t understand why. I know for sure it is not my job, because I enjoy my work.

I have been weeping for what seems like forever now. Things are out of control. It is like I am in this valley and I cannot find my way out. It is as if all of the doors with joy are closed. This month has been filled with sorrow. A little joy sprang up, but just for a little while. Lately, I have found myself upset in my dreams as in reality. It is like a lucid dream that is happening in reality.

I have been weeping so much that my eyes burn. Hearing certain music, a memory of the past, and not understanding why sickness has tried to overtake my body. Some days I feel like I just want to scream!! Sometimes I wish I had wings to fly away to a solitary place of solitude and just be still in the quietness of it. If I could get away from all of the stress in the world it would be a miracle, but until then I guess I will have to pick the battles that I want to fight.

I cannot let my tears cause me to become depressed. I cannot let my emotions overtake me. I don’t mind weeping for joy, but with that it brings laughter and a smile where there was a frown. As I have always heard; weeping is cleaning for the heart and soul. When it is an on going thing there is not any joy in it. It makes the body tired and weak.

I just hope and pray that this weeping will stop. The sooner I get off of this emotional roller-coaster the better I will feel. Keep me in your prayers. Thank you for joining me on my journey with Food for the Soul. God bless.