July 16, 2019 – Food for the Soul

All of these pictures were taken by my beautiful daughter that is in the picture with me. She is my baby girl. I just do not know what I would do if she were not in my life, I am so blessed that God chose me to be her mother. She is the apple of my eyes. I love her so much. She makes me laugh when I am sad, and she encourages me, and lifts me up when I am down. She is truly a blessing. It makes me sad when she is not around, especially when she is hanging out with her friends; it is as if she is gone forever and I am never going to see her again. We have always been close; when she started headstart, I literaly broke down and cried. I was not ready for her to leave me. She told me not to cry and that she would be back, I cried all the more. When I look back over the years from the time she was born until now, the years went by so fast. I blinked and she was walking, talking, running and playing, and getting into everything. She always tell me everyday how much she loves me, and just how much I mean to her. I always tell her that I am glad she is my daughter. I can just imagine how hard it is going to be when she gets ready to get her own place, I know that rivers of tears are going to flow and my husband is going to have to hold me tight to comfort me and wipe my tears away. I love my children more than I love myself, and if I am wrong, may God forgive me. I love my family. If I had to do it all over again, I would not do anything different. Her smile lights up any room. Her smile makes my heart smile. she told me one day, she said mother, I can see your heart, and I can feel you when your heart is broken. so I thought she was just making smalltalk, but she was telling the truth. She can look at me and say whats is wrong mother, and I will say nothing. She will tell me, yes it is, tell me. She says to me, mother, God got you, don’t worry. I smile and I tell her, yes He does.

We were sitting at the table eating, and my arm was paining me. She took my fork and said to me,” I will feed you mother, you fed me when I was small, and I will take care of you, you are my momma, I love you”. She tells me all of the time that I am like her sister and her best friend. I know that we will always be close and that will never change. All of the time that we spend together doing things, making memories that we will have to share with her children some day excites me for the future. All in all, she is still my little girl, but sometimes when I look at her I still see her as the little blanket baby we brought home from the hospital. It was raining that cold night in Feb. of 2003 on Valentines Day, she was born three days before that day. I still call her little bitty girl, or my girl.

No matter how old she gets, she will always be my baby. She is the last one. Miss Yas.

There are times in our lives when we go through things that we do not understand. I know that sometimes life can be a little hard, but it is only to help us focus on the one who has it all under control, and who has all of the answers to the things we do not understand. We tend to try to do things on our own and we end up even more frustrated and confused. We ask ourselves what are we doing wrong, and why is it so difficult just to perceive the things that are going on around us. We look at media feeds, watch the news, read the newspaper, and there is just nothing good going on. We ask ourselves what is all of this about, and why is all of this going on? Why is there no peace? Where is the justice for all of the wrong things that is happening in this world? What is this world coming to? Will it be safe for our children many years from now, will it be safe for us? In some places, it is devastation on every side; and there is nothing being done about it. Innocent people are losing their lives for no reason, it is not suppose to be this way. Sin is running rampant, and hate is only adding fuel to the fire. Will justice prevail, or is justice blind to all of this? Is there anyone seeking for justice? Does anyone really care as to what is going on?

There are people that live in places where there is poverty everyday. There is no medical care, no clean water, no food supply, and the people suffer from day to day, night after night without proper care and nutrition that they need to survive. There are not schools for the children to attend, so they go without education. It is important that we pray for a better day for this world and the people that are alive, that are going through things that is out of their control, for people to be treated fairly regardless of where they are from, regardless of the color of their skin, we are all God’s children, and as One Nation Under God, we all should get together and pray for this nation! We need God! He has been taken out of schools, out of almost everything. Have we a people forgotten who created this whole world? Have we forgotten that it is God that gives us our lives everyday? Have we forgotten that it is His Spirit that lives in us? Second Timothy 1:7 tells us that,” For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.” We do not have to be afraid to pray for the nation that we live in.

Matthew 6:33-34 tells us that,” But seek first the kingdom of God and HIS righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you. ” Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.” God knows what is going on; He see this everyday. We need to seek Him in all things, and yes I mean all things. When we go to Him about things that are going on in this world, it shows Him that we care about the world that we live in. We can pray without ceasing on a daily basis. I am not saying not to go about your day not doing what you want to do, but just to send a prayer up to God to let Him ease your mind as to what is going on in this world, it shows Him that we trust HIM to fix all of this. It may not happen in our lifetime here on this earth, but it may happen in the generations to come.

God does not do things on our time, He does things in His perfect timing, just like whenever He created this world, it was in His own perfect timing. See, we live in time, He lives outside of time because HE is immortal, we are mortal. If God did everything that we wanted HIM to do for us right when we ask HIM, how would we ever learn to trust HIM? How would we learn to wait on HIM? How would we learn to have hope? We need to put all of our hope, and trust in God. He has all of the answers, and by faith we know that it all will soon come to pass.

My heart is very heavy because of what is going on, and because of what I am seeing in the news. It brings me to want to pray even more for all people. I pray for all people; not just some. God loves us all. We all should have hearts that are full of compassion for our fellow man, woman, young, and the young at heart. I know that God is not pleased with what is going on, and some day all of this will be vindicated. All of the wrong will be made right, and there will be peace in the land, in the land that is The United States of America!

I want to thank all of the brave soldiers that have fought, and those that are fighting to keep America safe. God bless you all. Amen!